just all about her

Every time you come home you always speak about her, i dont care about her, but you do alot, then why are you with me? cause she has a boyfriend? cause your with me? well they are problems easily fixed... i cant take it any more its always about another girl -.-'''

i dont know if i should be worried... i am worried, ALOT!!! cause your mine and i care, no i dont care, yes i do, i dont know anymore i am confussed about alot of things, your hot and cold. Maybe im just crazy like you said, i have problems like you said... im not the one for you right??? then stop acting like you are. Just be with her, i cant take this pain any more, i felt the spark once before then i lost it again, maybe its gone forever this time... i am scared, there is noone i can talk to about this, i cant talk to you cause you will just laugh it off, i know you will, cause this subject has been brought up before... and it will always end up in a fight, im loosing i know i am, but this is me, you have seen every emotion possible even ones i didnt know i had, and now i just feel vunerable, you taught me how to soar, how to reach my dreams, i trusted you and now i feel hurt and empty, maybe i am just crazy like you said, but i am curious on how much you actually care about me.... how is she so special, what can she do that i cant?? can she make you smile like i do... i guess she makes you smile more then i ever could... i remember the times where i would look at you and you would smile instantly, but now, maybe, its forced. you know it makes me happy... why are you trying to keep me happy for? you dont care, you couldnt care less... im just nothing to you, thats how it is... thats how it always will be. I cant keep it in, but i am soooo scared to tell you how i feel... i want you to magically know but then again i cant